Sunday, May 2, 2010

little zoolander

Strike a pose
Add a little flair
Camera love
This was one of the rare moments today when River was not sleeping. I never thought I'd say this, but our newborn sleeps too much.
The first few days home from the hospital seemed like an endless cycle of trying to persuade our sleepy little boy to wake up and eat. He is finally starting to nurse every 2-3 hours without me having to undress, tickle, and talk him into it.
It's a huge relief now that he often wakes all on his own ready to eat.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

from market to garden

This morning, we went to the Farmer's Market in Fayetteville and came home with tomato seedlings for our garden.

This has become our Mother's Day tradition, and this year we ended up with a cherry tomato, 2 heirloom beefsteaks, 2 paste tomatoes, and a yellow pear tomato. We're hoping for enough tomatoes to enjoy over the summer and a surplus to can for later in the year.

Liam helped Gabriel plant them in the garden, sprinkling the surrounding area with marigold seeds, and rounding out the bed with some cantoulopes to vine in and among the other plants.
Our early spring plantings are really starting to take off, and most of the greens are ready for us to start thinning/eating them.

Mustard Greens and Garlic
Arugula
We also set up two new rain barrels. This collects rainwater off of the shed, and the other one is back in our pond garden to collect rainwater off of the side of the house.
The black raspberry vines we brought back from the farm in Iowa last spring are really taking off now. We're hoping for lots of berries later in the summer...
River enjoyed the afternoon under the shade of the mulberry tree.

Friday, April 30, 2010

brothers

Liam woke up this morning asking Where's River?

He is loving his role as the big brother, which he continues to remind us is his new title.

He especially likes to hold River, asking if he can have him now.

Liam has never been especially aggressive, but neither is he known for gentleness. His enthusiasm around the baby makes me a little nervous, but also very, very happy.
It's still strange to think that I am the mother of two boys... Gabriel is, of course, thrilled and quite proud. I keep reminding him that it will still be a little while before he can take them off on canoeing expeditions and backpacking trips.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

The Birth Story

The Birth Story:
or, how we got from
here
to here
in 12 hours.

Warning: This is the post where I talk about such things as ruptured membranes, cervical dilation, and all those fluids.

Tuesday morning, Gabriel and I went to my 40 weeks doctors appointment with 6 days of labor already behind us and still only 1 cm of dilation to show for it.
Dr. Crownover, my OB, assured us that from the baby's standpoint whether we decided to help my labor progress more quickly through medical intervention (i.e.-pitocin) or if we just stuck it out and let nature take its meandering course, either option appeared safe.
Having been down this long road before with Liam, my greatest concern wasn't the pitocin-hard labor-epidural path, it was the increased risk for caeserean. He assured me that, assuming my health and the baby's continued to remain steady, he would not make a decision for a caeserean unless I opted for it. In other words, he wasn't going to put an allowable time frame on my labor process.
As soon as he said that, I asked how soon we could get things going at the hospital.
We got home from the appointment at 11:00 am and checked into the hospital by noon.
I was anxious for it all to be over with.
After filling out paper work, changing into a much-too-large gown, and enduring two attempts at my IV line, they had me going on the pitocin by 1:30 pm.
The first couple of hours, the pain of my contractions slowly increased. I shifted onto the birthing ball and it wasn't long until I felt a peculiar popping sensation, some dampness, and then I stood up and the gushing began. This was unbelievably exciting, not just because things were finally starting to happen, but because my body handled this part all on its own.
From that point on, things became increasingly painful quicker and quicker.
By 7 pm, the contractions were becoming excruciating.
The nurse checked me: 5 cm. This was a lot of progress in under 6 hours, and I was hurting bad. And have I mentioned before that I was tired?
One epidural, please.
Make that two.
The anesthesiologist hit my vertebrae on the first try. Yes, ouch. Ouch again, and again, while he tried to maneuver his way in. Then he just started over and it slid in without me even noticing it.
Within 10 minutes I felt so much better. So good, in fact, that I promptly fell asleep.
Over the next few hours, while my body labored away and I dozed off and on, I became
increasingly aware of the sensation of pressure during my contractions.
Even though my lower half was so numb I couldn't move my legs if my life depended on it, I could still feel the overwhelming urge to push when I reached 10 cm.
I pushed River out over the course of just a few contractions, and once he finally crowned, he came out all in one push. I didn't have a single rip.
He came out crying, covered in that white waxy vernix (Liam didn't have any of that on him), and a bit of meconium, too.
They placed him immediately on my belly, and it wasn't long until we fumbled our way through the first attempt at nursing. He is still figuring out the whole latching-on concept, but he is getting it.
They declared him healthy.
I declared it all a big relief.
And now we are home, I am no longer in endless labor, and I feel better than when we got to the hospital.
I know the next few weeks will be tough. The adjusting to life with a newborn and a toddler. But at least we are there. That's all I really wanted.

the picture post


River James Hall

April 28, 2010
1:30 am
8 pounds, 5 ounces
21.5 inches
More details and photos soon.
He needs to eat...

Monday, April 26, 2010

laboring through

So, Day #5 of the endless labor is drawing to a close.

Here's where things stand:

Since early yesterday evening, my contractions have progressed to every 3-4 minutes, and they are a bit more intense.

interpretation: 24 hours + moderate pain every 3-4 minutes = nearing exhaustion

This morning we went to the doctor's office. I was hooked up to a monitor to check both the baby's heart rate and the frequency of my contractions.

interpretation: River's heart beat is strong. So are my contractions.

My doctor was out of the office for the morning, but the nurse went ahead and checked me. I am only dilated 1 centimeter, and was effaced a small enough amount that she didn't even give me a number.

interpretation: fighting tears and depression at this point...

I have my 40 weeks appointment tomorrow morning (my due date). Assuming I will still be pregnant and laboring away, we are prepared to talk over some options with the doctor.

It has been hard for me to come to terms with the fact that my body is not good at this whole progressing-through-labor-thing. I am so used to feeling competent and sure of myself, and I always imagined that I would be the earthy kind of mama who pops out a 9 pound baby in an afternoon. Obviously, this is one fantasy I really can't control.

As much as I believe that labor is a natural progression, mine is progressing so slowly. And I am tired. Very tired. And birthing a baby is a lot of work.

I know my doctor won't pressure me one way or the other, so I am looking forward to hearing his opinion tomorrow.

But even more, I am looking forward to sleepless nights with the baby on the outside of my body...